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I stared at them and they stared back at me. Then, as if beyond my own will, I took a step or two towards the man closest to me. I told him that I loved him and all indigenous Australian people. Not only that I loved them, but that I respected them. By this time it seemed as if we had all become mesmerised somehow. He then said that the attendant had had no respect for them and that they had gotten angry. Not because he wouldn't give them a smoke, but because he had no respect. "I respect you," I said. Just as things had calmed down and the two men looked like walking away, the attendant came out and started to throw punches and then they were all into it again.
A booming voice come out of me as I told the young attendant, "GO BACK INSIDE!" Amazingly, he did just that. I then said to the two indigenous men in a voice that was not my own, "He is only a boy and he is frightened. You are men." I told them that he would be ringing the police, so they had better go, and with that they vanished into the humid Darwin night. Once they were out of sight, I went into the store and asked the attendant if he needed any help picking up the shelves and tidying the place up. He said, "No." I told him I was sorry for what had happened to him. He was bruised, cut, dishevelled and clearly still charged up and upset. Once I knew he would be all right I left.
As I walked away from the store and back to my car, I felt something leave my body, like it had moved up out of my body while I remained behind. Then I seemed to wake up to myself. Oh my God, I thought as I walked away. I can't believe I just did that. But perhaps I had had some divine assistance on this occasion. When I told my friends the story later on, one piped up, "Yeah, those guys probably thought you were some kind of 'spirit-woman'. You probably frightened the hell out of them!"
Some of the beings that came into my body felt like a cross between angels, extraterrestrials and faeries. I called them this because these are the only things I had to compare them with. Whatever and whoever they were, I could visualise them in human form, but they were not necessarily human and I was not sure whether they had ever been human. On one occasion when I had gone to do some shopping at the Rapid Creek Market on a Sunday, there appeared to be several of them in my body, while I remained co-conscious. I felt like there were several older beings teaching a younger 'being' how to 'read people's minds without interfering with their thoughts'. Then a man who would have been in his sixties, had seemed to become disoriented. He followed me for a minute or two, until he suddenly came to his his senses in front of me, looked around himself and walked off.
I clearly felt them in my body. I felt them teaching the younger one not to enter the minds of 'humans', so as not to have this kind of thing happen. I knew these 'beings', whom at the time I was describing as 'selves', so I did not 'freak out'. This accidental hypnosis of people had been going on since the 1990's and I was interested to see what was going to happen next. The rule of the psyche was that anything was possible as long as no other being was harmed in the process. These 'beings' were not malevolent and I felt all right having them in my body with me. At the time I was told, you are the documenter. While this remains one of the more bizarre experiences that I had with them, to my way of thinking it also felt natural, as if it was simply part of the evolution of my own way of 'being in the world' that I had understood since infancy.
These 'beings' taught me about the way in which consciousness was operating in the physical world. The first thing I did, with them assisting me, happened when I saw a man standing staring at me from a balcony while I was unloading the car. I did not feel comfortable with it and so within my mind I told him to go inside. He did. I had also 'practiced' this with several people and found that if they did not notice me, and I was able to maintain a focused and relaxed mind on them, I could sometimes make them lose balance or become disoriented. Over the years people had lost concentration or become confused and disoriented around me, without me knowing what was going on.
Another time while living in the bedsit, what appeared to be a male 'angelic being' had suddenly came down into my body without warning. I had not left my body, but instead I felt myself grow very tall. At the same time this occurred, it seemed as if the consciousness of Binda was brought down by him into my body, so that I suddenly felt like I was becoming Binda. I had adopted Binda's physical face and mind and felt that I was for a moment looking out through his eyes. This must have lasted for several seconds. Then they were both gone. I was left sitting in the computer chair, gazing at the door in shock and amazement. Would this seem to indicate that Binda's consciousness was somehow with them, whatever and whoever they were? I was told, yes, we can combine and become one. But this was just too far beyond my reality and I could not make any rational sense of what had just occurred, only that it had been unexpected and spontaneous and it had felt physical. |
