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These days I am a different type of being to the one who drove her car from Macquarie Fields to Darwin in 2003, in order to set up a spiritual retreat for artists and writers. I remain connected to this society with the intention of assisting those in need, but I only do so under the ongoing guidance of the benevolent universal consciousness. The other night I again gave thanks to the universe or (God). I said, "It is not so much the fact that I love you, because I always have. But it's the fact that I now know how much you love me, that makes me feel so blessed."
Walking with the 'angels' or the 'benevolent universal consciousness' both without and within, is like being involved in a permanent state of ecstasy, that I had only entered into for brief periods of time in my twenties. To love for me is easy, but to feel that same love cycling back through my soul from the universe, is a miracle. In the same way that the dogs loved me, I now know that I am loved unconditionally and eternally. I have written these words because I know that you who read them are as loved as I am and in the same way as I am. The universe is waiting for our conscious participation, for us all to come home.
So on this enduring and unending spiritual level, I trust that the 'universal consciousness' that continues to guide and teach all of us, is a benevolent, creative and evolving force. I also know that the kind of physical 'phenomena' that may occur will be in all of our best interests as we embrace it as a part of our everyday lives and our ongoing spiritual development. This will occur as we learn to love all other beings as ourselves and to work in the best interests of the planet and the universe, and as our consciousness expands from ego and societal consciousness into a multidimensional and universal consciousness. I believe that the 'phenomena' I continue to experience will soon be explained by a combination of metaphysics, parapsychology, transpersonal psychology, mathematics and quantum physics.
This book may have been written at a time when such things are meant to be left unsaid or risk facing ridicule by the 'reality experts'. But when things like this continue to happen on an ongoing basis to so many people, one comes to realise that they can no longer be hidden or ignored. While I have recorded events as accurately as possible, there are many times when I might have labelled them in the wrong way, due to social conditioning and upbringing or my lack of education in this area. Ultimately I do not claim to know the answers, only to say that I am to develop and continue to evolve my consciousness and that my own life continues to be a journey of creativity and discovery, where I now embrace such experiences without fear.
I have since heard this consciousness referred to as space intelligences, celestial intelligent energies, spirits, disincarnates, selves, sub-personalities, otherkin, faeries, elementals, guides, angels, guardian angels, extraterrestrials, disembodied consciousness, walk-ins, spirits, ghosts and poltergeists. I still don't know exactly who or what they are. In my case I would describe those with whom I interact as conscious energy that comes from the stars. I call them 'angelic beings' and I refer to the physical manifestation of their presence in the world as the 'phenomena'. I know that all consciousness in the universe is connected to my own, so that when we walk, we walk as one.
One of the most important things that I have learned from my experiences over the past years is to trust myself and to have trust in the process and to know that no matter what happens, and even when I don't understand it, everything will be all right. This has meant honouring my own experience and allowing the creative and benevolent universal consciousness (God) and all the combined consciousnesses of existence to speak within the psyche. It has meant not looking for the answers in others, but trusting in and allowing myself to simply tune into what exists.
While we cannot provide the answers nor the saving grace for each other, we can continue to serve each other, so that in good company our lives become the lighthouses, guiding those who are lost and exposing those with ill intentions, the closer they move towards us. It has meant continuing to be aware of a benevolent force that is greater than myself, but of which I am a part, as my guide, my teacher, my parent and my traveling companion. It has meant joining with this force in loving union and very recently as both a humble and powerful co-creator. It has meant incredible and ongoing responsibility for my physical body that I inhabit and the central psyche that I share. Love was the key. Faith turned the handle. But wisdom opened the door. |
