THE DRAGON'S FALLEN WOMAN FANTASIES [1]:
THE DROWNING PAGAN WOMAN
The Dragon Fantasised About Me Being Unconscious, Swooning, Drowning And Dying Or Dead, For Him.
"Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.” [Ephesians 5:14, The Holy Bible, KJV]
Fallen angels and/ or demons are not just simple, cardboard cutout characters, made by Hollywood, for public consumption. They are individual beings, with their own histories, personalities, likes and dislikes. They hate God. They very much hate human beings, who God made in His own image. They are thousands of years old. What makes it even more important, for human beings, to avoid involvement with them, on any level, is that The Word of God, warns us about who they are, as our spiritual adversary. "He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.” [John 8:44, The Holy Bible, KJV]
In this section, I will briefly explore, how The Dragon, appeared to operate in my life, in regards to his ongoing and persistant fantasy, of me being an unconscious and/ or drowning woman. While this area of interest, is specific to The Dragon's character, in regards to his relationship with me, I believe that it is also common to all fallen angels, since these same symbols and motiffs, appear in the creative arts, over and over again, all over the world, from antiquity to the present day.
The Dragon had an obsession about 'being in love' or 'falling in love' and particularly about me, being 'in love' with him. Coupled with this, he also fantasised about me being unconscious, being under water, being in an altered state of consciousness, drowning and/ or being dead in the water. Listed are a few of the different images that he led me to, at various times during my life, where this can be evidenced.
The Dragon accompanied me to the many art galleries, that I visited in Australia and overseas such as in Canada, New York, London and Paris. He got me interested in them, in a way that I roamed them, searching for answers, that the artists who were represented in them, were incapable of giving me. But then he would lead me to different paintings and sculptures, exerting his will over my own, as a way of creating certain feelings within me, as I studied what he wanted me to study. Many of these images ended up being of women, in altered states of consciousness, such as drowning women, winged human angels [cupid] and women [psyche], in romantic relationship and/or faeries [demons] abuducting women, who were in passive and/or altered states of consciousness, such as in being drowsy or asleep.
I would be completely absorbed in these images, while The Dragon held my mind within his own, so that his thoughts, became my thoughts and his lies my truths.
The first image, that I remember being shown, was of a mermaid hybrid, or a woman associated with water, when I was led by The Dragon, to The Theosophical Bookshop in Sydney, at 13 years of age. I had never seen anything like these kinds of images before and I found them so mesmerising, that I purchased the image [above] by artist Susan Seddon Boulet, so that I could keep looking at it, not realising at the time, that this was akin to watching a movie, or listening to a song over and over again. It was a form of conditioning or programming. The woman in this portrait, is in a passive altered state of consciousness, with large spiral on her forehead, representative of opening a psychic portal and/ or being under hypnosis.
This image of a drowned Chistian martyr appeared to be a favourite of The Dragon. Perhaps he liked to see me in his way, imagining, that I would be dying, for him.
The Dragon would lead me to images, like this unconscious woman in the ocean waves. Notice that the woman is letting go of her Rosary beads, with the cross hanging on one end. While not Christian, this is symbollic of her letting go of her only connection to Jesus Christ [through catholicism], as she becomes a human sacrifice, to those [fallen angels and/ or demons], who chose inhabit the oceans.
The Dragon would then have me pose in photographs like this. I never related this back to any of the images, that I had been shown over the years. Instead, I just did whatever I was 'inspired' to do, believing that 'inspiration' could be trusted, since it was part of creativity. Art was my idol and so I was compliant, under deception.
There are many 'dragons' in this world, who can only relate to women, while they are in an altered state of consciousness. It's about deception and mind control.
The Dragon would have me pose in photographs like this one, taken by Caitlin Poulton, at Froghole, in Purnululu [Bungle Bungle] National Park, in Western Australia, where I would close my eyes, as if to mimic unconsciousness or sleep.
He would then have me turn that image, into a human hybrid. This was so that he could have me corrupt my God given human body, that was created in God's image, into something 'less' than human, in this case, a mermaid, a reptile or amphibian.
The above 'selves' portrait is of Celeste, as a hybrid 'mermaid' self/ spirit coming out and suspended within the stone. It was created [channeled] around 2003 while living at Ridgehaven Circuit in Leanyer, Northern Territory. I am again represented in a state of sleeping, ie; an altered state of consciousness. The Dragon has been incorporated into the picture, as a set of flying wings, appearing in the upper right hand side. It is important to note, that art the time, I did not feel like I was being forced into doing anything. I felt creatively "inspired" and simply trusted in the process, since I appeared to be tapping into a source of endless ideas. It's just that I didn't know where this 'inspiration' came from and when I look back, at what I was doing, in hindsight, the 'ideas' were not so endless afterall. Instead, they were limited and directed in their concepts, as well as being designed, instigated and propagated, for a specific purpose. I was just the medium for this 'spirit' of The Dragon to work through, so that he could continue to manifest his own "anti-christ" ideas in this world, while destroying my relationship to God, as he was doing it.
 
Note how the photo of myself corresponds with the film photo of the character Laura Palmer, in David Lynch's series Twin Peaks. David Lynch as a well known director, has been inspired by a fallen angel, who directs the content of his work.
The Dragon used one of the songs from Twin Peaks, while I was in Paris, just before heading to Edinburgh, where he had been taking me through The Lourve, for a couple of days. I fell asleep in the hotel room, leaving the small portable television set on. I was awoken at 2.22am, to the song "Falling", from the series Twin Peaks, blaring out the words " ... Are we faaall-ing in loooove?" over the test pattern. In the symbollic language, that had developed between The Dragon and myself, the number 222 meant partnership/ relationship. At the time, I remember feeling, like some invisible force, was trying to seduce me in some way, but chose to ignore it, going back to sleep. I didn't think to question at the time, why everything else coming from the television, was in French, while this one song, was in English ...
This is the cover image, to one of my books of poetry titled; Psychic Gun, in which I appear to be an altered state of consciousness [perhaps dead] and The Dragon as the 'light source', blowing my mind, like a 'psychic gun' to my thought processes.
This photo was taken by myself in 2009, while in an altered state of consciousness. I really don't even know how I took it, since I did not have a tripod and I would have had to line up the camera and aim it at myself before taking the photo ... Nevertheless, it was under The Dragon's instruction, because I note what appears to be a 'beam of light' [that was most likely something on my office desk, just getting in the way], shooting into my forehead, which is representative of The Dragon, directly affecting my mind. It's similar to cover image, for Psychic Gun.
I was led to images of women, who were either asleep at the bases of trees, or held inside trees. This is where the selves of four teenage girls [Sophie, Scarlet, Cynthia and Veronica] were kept or held, in a state of sleep or hibernation, in the multiple system of consciousness, that was originally created, by The Dragon.
This was a work in progress, that was to become part of an exhibition titled; Faery Wood, that I created between 2007-9, showing the 4 'sleepers', beneath the trees.
I was also led to this image, of a woman hanging on a tree, being over water at the same time, incorporating three of The Dragon's interests, being water, trees and a passive woman, who appears to be entering into an altered state of consciousness. |
